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[paradoxlol]

[Private to the Admiral]
I'd like to make a request for the following, for my inmate:

1. X-Box 360
2. The latest Madden game as of 2010
3. A couple of Guitar Hero games as of 2010. With the controllers.
4. And the most recent versions of: Bad Company, Call of Duty, Halo, Team Fortress. I don't really know my shooters, are these good?
5. Free weights in the range of [insert lbs here].

[Kitchen Warden Filter]
Perry's agreed to take on Breakfast, unless you guys are good on staff now, in which case he'll help out with Lunch. Just tell me where he's needed.

[Maintenance Filter]
I need someone to repair the door on Level 8, Room [I forget; Perry's :c]

[PUBLIC]
Is the book club still going? I'm not really interested in spending time with a lot of you, and I'll probably think your selections are derivative and insipid, and I usually only hung out in the library to research people and talk to Coyolxuahqui (and her breasts), but I'm bored now that my inmate's broken my ribs. So I need something to fill in the void left by sparring until this heals. Right now, my most strenuous activity is jerking off, which I've already done twice today, though I'd prefer a partner. Luckily, I'm attractive, and many of you are attractive, so I'm confident somebody will lend me a hand.

[OOC: I'm sorry. I'm so sorry /Tennantvoice]

Comments

All of the humiliation, man...

[creatingalegacy]

You have it easier than some. I can't masturbate anymore. I don't have a healthy sex drive now and the capacity for sexual interaction was burned out of me, but I don't allow myself to masturbate either because I want to be above that and fervently believe I need to devote all of my energy towards a greater purpose. That's why when I kill or test people, I tend to get right up close and give off unintentionally seductive body language. I almost never even realize it's happening because I don't get off on it; it's just the closest high-intensity activity I have to sex.

This disturbs me, though, more than the things I'm saying. All of this shit. I was immobilized in the infirmary when Coyolxauhqui was killing people, so it's not that. It's because I could hear my warden talking about her willingness to sleep with you before I replied and I don't like to think of her as having sexual desires. That's just one more way she could find someone to replace me and I'm terrified that will happen, even though she insists it won't. We don't have sex, so don't think that. I don't want to have sex with her or anyone else, ever. I just don't like her interacting with anyone but me because I'm an angry, paranoid, jealous person.

[whattheytellyou.livejournal.com]

I'm not going to have sex with Arthur.

[creatingalegacy]

Yeah, I heard you say that you were repulsed, but I have a hard time not feeling jealous and threatened when I think of someone important to me getting close to other people. That's why I acted abusively towards Lynn Denlon even though she was working to save John's life.

[whattheytellyou.livejournal.com]

I know. Don't worry, though. He looks like Rex and I find that weird.

[creatingalegacy]

I would find that incredibly weird if you did choose to have sex with him.

[whattheytellyou.livejournal.com]

There are only a handful of people on this ship that I would choose to sleep with right now, and none of them are Arthur or Rex.

[paradoxlol]

I don't think masturbation really burns that much energy. I still manage to accomplish a lot even with my sex drive.

Don't worry about Sarah. If we ever had sex, it wouldn't lead to anything, because I'm not interested in getting into a relationship.

[creatingalegacy]

It's less of an actual, true energy I'm thinking of, but something more nebulous and symbolic that really only makes sense in my head.

Even though I would fucking hate for you to have sex with her, if you do, make sure she knows you don't want a relationship beforehand. If she expects more and you hurt her by turning her down, I will probably jump you in the hall and beat you until subdued.

[paradoxlol]

I never got any of that "higher purpose" or symbolic stuff, which is funny, since I'm obsessed with dreams.

Anyway, I think I blew my chances by triggering unpleasant memories for her.

[creatingalegacy]

I don't assign any special significance to dreams. That was more John's thing than mine. He was sort of spiritual and considered both Hindu and Buddhist schools of thought as well as standard psychology concerning them.

Good. She can reassure me over and over that she won't replace me but I'll always fear it anyway.